Love is a Many-Splendored Thing

If I get back to blogging on a regular basis, there's probably going to be a lot of posts about my favorite man in this world but for this post, I don't just want it to be about a love story between two people. Our love story would take pages upon pages to describe and it's still be written. I haven't even told u the half of it! Instead, I want to let it be known that everyday is an opportunity to change your life. If it is internal and something you struggle with yourself, find a way to get help, write about it,  talk to someone. If it's a goal you want to accomplish, work hard, don't give up. And if it's meeting new people, be kind and be yourself because in the moment you may not realize that a complete stranger could become the most important person in your life. I wish that the one opportunity that everyone should be given in their life is to fall in love because it's a pretty great feeling. The only problem is that you can't go out searching for this "love". It's not meant to be found, it's meant to be felt and when you start feeling that with someone it won't gradually come but instead,  hit you like a truck. You're willing to look past their bad decision making in the past or their annoying habits in the present because you love them too much. You become a better person without realizing that you're doing it because you know that that's what they deserve. You wake up every morning with both of you in mind and fall in love even more when you roll over and look them in their soulful brown eyes to say good morning. You may even make sacrifices just to be with them. You won't realize that you've found your soulmate until you start doing all of that but more importantly you know you're in love when you can't imagine a life without them in it. Hopefully you will be lucky to realize that before they're gone. No matter where you are in life or what age you are, be grateful with how far you've come and everything you've accomplished. That's the thing about life...it just happens and the strong people are the ones who are able to face life and everything that comes with it. I hope you all get many opportunities and live a life that will make you happy and in my opinion, it's  easier if you have someone next to your side, supporting you,  helping you, and loving you every step of the way like my boyfriend does with me.

All I Ever Wanted

It's been so long since I've blogged... Considering my last post was a guy I dated a year ago. Well, a lot has happened in a year.  A couple months after that breakup, I was at work and I walked over to a volunteer and started up a conversation. Almost a year later (it will be exact on May 3, 2015) that guy is still in my life as my best friend and love of my life.  We have been through so much together that I wouldn't even know where to start to even explain our unusual yet epic love story we have. It's been difficult at times but that's what you get when you're 100% honest with your partner. I have found out some things from his past and learned about the consequences he has to face now and then there's been mistakes I've made but through it all we have never given up on one another. As much as it sucked at times, we grew together and learned from it all and all of it shaped us to who we are today and continues to challenge and shape us everyday. I believe this was the path that a higher order had in store for us. A year of being together (if you don't count the 2 small times we broke up)  and we couldn't be more happy.  Even though we have to face the facts and deal with the situation, we are doing it together. I'm sorry to the viewers that I'm being so cryptic with what we have to go through but I respect my boyfriend and it's his story that I would know he would want to keep private. Anyways, I know you may think this is just another blog of another guy whom I've fallen for. However, for the first time, not only am I telling you all that I have fallen in love,  but I'm telling the world that I have found my husband.

In the beginning, we had some bumps but that's to be expected when you decide to date during the summer when you live in two different cities, 100 miles apart, and did i mention we had just met? But when I came back for school we tried again and it was great. Then he told me some things and by this point I had already falling head over heels for this man. I had to make the difficult decision of breaking up with him because I need to focus on graduating and finding a career which his situation could potential affect and he needs to focus on school which his mistakes made him behind in. I missed him too much and realized I can try and do it all. It's not like he's in my way!  We love each other so much that we will be the few who can make long distance work when I move back to my hometown after graduation. We had every obstacle thrown at us and ups and downs and breakups but somehow we made it. Our love was so strong that we were able to conquer all of that.

At first, I questioned the real reason why I was breaking up with him. I though I was doing what was right for both of us but I was confused and just needed answers. Was it really because of his situation that I couldn't be with him? As time went on I realized that I was willing to look past that because my love for him was so much stronger than even I believed was possible. I wasn't about to hold a dumb mistake he made when he was a kid against him. I have been by his side through 98% of the situation and I witnessed a person completely change for the better and grow into the man that i had always dreamt of and the man I would be proud to call mine and the man who I would be happy to have children with. The popular saying goes that "people don't change." They always fall into their old habits and I used to believe this myself until this one guy proved me wrong. He tells me almost everyday that the main reason he changed was because of me and I know that's true and would like to take credit but it wasn't just me.  He was the one who stayed strong through all of it. He was the one who went out of his way to be a better person, not just because he wanted to make me happy but because he wanted to make himself happy. He wanted to make a change since he knew that everything he had done was a mistake and he hated the person he had become. He made that first step even before I met him and I may have encouraged him to continue when I came into his life but all the credit should really go to him. I love him so much and I cannot wait to go through life with this man and experience everything together.